How Do I Feel?

What are the words that describe my feelings as I prepare to leave Austin, where I've lived for 24 years? Here I started two new careers. Here I met and married my husband. Here I've loved living as I've worked with many people to find emotional and spiritual health.

One of those people emailed me last week, expressing her feelings about my leaving. Her words evoked sadness, and what immediately came to my mind were the lyrics from Neil Diamond, "And wept when it was all done, for being done too soon." I shed some tears, but it didn't feel right to grieve. There hasn't been a death.

Then I ran across these words from Rabindranath Tagore:  "When old words die out on the tongue, new melodies break forth from the heart; and where the old tracks are lost, new country is revealed with its wonders."

Our move is more arrival than departure, and my true feeling is deep gratitude for the relationships and opportunities Austin has so generously given, mixed with joyful anticipation of what the future holds in Sedona.

You write it:  Right now, how do you feel?